Where were you?

Where were you?

Where were you when he was alone, screaming to be heard,
When all he wanted to was to loved,
Where were you when he stretched out his hand, needing to be touched,
When he cried, loathed, spoke against life,
Where were you when friends escaped him,
When his heart turned to stone,
Where were you when his plans began to rage into the insane,
When thoughts began to turn into reality,

Where was I when rage passed me by,
When those I have known entertained death,
Where was I when others have dreamt of dying,
When life seemed torture to continue,
Where was I when brokenness shattered into reality,
When shame was allowed to live,
Where was I when Satan was allowed to play his hand,
When his lies were perceived as truth,

And you God,
Where were you when he entered my world,
When hell was allowed to enter my home,
Where you when his eyes no longer shone,
When they sucked light from life,
Where you when he let bullets fly,
When they struck my family,
Where you when they began to breath their last,
When they did not understand what had just occurred,
Where were you when it was understood the love that was lost,
When hearts were ripped open, in ways that should not be,
Where were you when each answer seemed not nearly good enough,
When all I wanted was to understand,
Where were you at that moment, in that hallway, on that night,
When reality seemed no longer real?

The only answer that I can trust is that you were there,
Screaming that this choice would not be chosen,
Weeping with me as reality sunk into the deepest places of my soul,
Holding those dear to me as they entered eternity,
At that moment, and those after, your heart too was ripped to pieces just as mine,
Weeping over life lost and life distorted,
Screaming, as I have, WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN!
Holding my family in your arms speaking that this world is very messed up and you love us amidst it all.